at 3:32am

There is nothing good to watch at 3:32am in the morning...  I think I'm just going to stay up all night, watch the sunrise, and then sleep during the day.  For the second time this summer.  Maybe then I won't have to clean the house tomorrow...  Yup, osunds good to me.  As long as I can make it...  Yawn...

UWAAH! I'm, like FREAKING OUT MAN!!!

I'm totally freaking out...  My ensemble preformance is today and I'm just now getting scared and nervous and all that other stuff that comes with preformances and crud.  When I started brushing my teeth for the second time today (idk why, but before big events i like to brush my teeth an extra time) it hit me in the gut that we were either going to do great or totally fail...  However, there are some things that my teacher apparently forgot to tell us about our perfomance.  Like how it has to be a minimum of three minutes long O-O  This whole time we've been practicing it, we've been going way too fast and idk if it's even two minutes.  Ergh, I'm so nervous!!  I need a hug or something cuz im about to freak out...  Just hope that I don't start crying (it prob won't get that bad but i kinda feel like it right now).  You know, during one of our vocab quizes in band, our teacher made us write down what we do to get keep calm before a performance.  my reply- "nothing, i usually freak out inside"  Ya, well now it's happening...  I'm so scared! o>.<o  maybe things will change on my ride there...  If only my ride would show up... wish us luck!!!  please?

Sudden Realization

I was looking at a Harvest Moon blog thing and I suddenly realized-  Harvest Moon needs to make another wii game!!  Like, seriously, HMToT and HMAP were some of the best games ever!!!!  I kinda want to play them again but i've already beaten them...  Oh please Harvest Moon creators!!  Forget about the DS and 3DS already!!  I want a wii game so bad!!  oh, that and Gakuen Hetalia for DS should have come out in Hetalia today!!  They really need to convert it to english.  Like, no joke O_O  i REALLY want a Hetalia game...  sadly, they've already had the version for PSP out for awhile and they haven't converted that yet.  Maybe something will be different with the DS game.  I hope so...  In other news, Harvest Moon Lands of Origin (or something like that, I've heard many variations of this...) came out a little while back, sometime late February, and it looks pretty good.  Hopefully they release it in the US.  It's for 3DS and new features include being able to change the layout with your farm and your hair color and skin tone.  Yes, no more having to stick with the original character- you can make it look like you!  Or some other anime character!  Exciting, right?  As for the eligible bachelors in the game, I'm not extremely impressed -.-  Amir and Witch are back though, yay!  That's all i really have to say now...   ........ ................. bye.

I have been... forgotten

My science teacher forgot me again XP  this is about, the third or fourth time he's forgotten about me.  I might as well care around a polar bear and call myself Canada...  At this rate, I'm kinda starting to feel a bit like him.  But really, it's just my science teacher.  This time, he forgot that I haven't presented yet.  Its a little bit understandable because I had switched places with another group and he said he had already crossed my name off.  But if that's the case, why didn't he just rewrite it?  Idk, I'm not angry, just a little hurt.  Like a little little.  Like, somebody just flicked me on my arm kind of hurt.  Well, idk how much that hurts to you but not much to me.  In other words, I still have to present and now it's more of an annoyed feeling than a nervous feeling.  Hopefully everything goes well...

Kinda nervous...

UWAAH!!!  I have to present my project tomorrow and it totally sucks!!  Not to mention I have a fear of public ___ (insert blank with any word, public anything is bad i.e. speaking, presenting, talking, appearances).  I'm kinda scared but not to the point of freaking out. o>_<o <--- for some reason, my cousin thinks that face looks weird, does anybody mind telling me how it could?

Science Project

So, I was supposed to present my project today...  But, when he called my name to start presenting and I kinda freaked out a little (I really only put my head in my hands) a group of girls stepped forward saying they wished to switch places with me.  So I went ahead and let them.  Their car failed.  It couldn't got the nessecary 1.5m.  Which sucks.  And their video was lame.  So, now I have to present either some time tomorrow or Thursday.  My science teacher asks us questions while we present too and being a one person group (most people did two or three people groups) will make my job harder >_<   Oh well, this way, when he asks a question, I can yell "Irrelevant!" and then quickly follow up with the answer.  AH!!  I should have just presented today!!  Now I wish I would have presented...  My power point is horrible though...  I wish I could have done the video!!! >_<

RAH!!

I'm back.  After such a long leave of absense.  I was sick =/  and really angry about missing school.  grr.  Oh well, that and I had a lot of things i had to make up and stuff and i just didn't feel like getting on.  So, i finished my newton mobile and it looks pretty good.  Actually, i made a prototype and helped my dad with the one im going to present in class.  And I had to make a poster.  And a power point...  Oh, and type an essay and do a data packet.  All last night.  I only got 4 1/2 hours of sleep last night and im about to fall asleep...  RAH!!  I'm not going to fall asleep!!  Not yet!!  So, on my car, I put Britain from Hetalia.  A little papercraft doll.  My teacher did say that it has to be big enough to hold an army man!  And he is definitely wearing a military uniform!!!  So, most people in my class did a car with a sail or a balloon car.  Mine might be the only rat trap car...  I hope so, it'll make it unique.  I was so angry!!  (yes, it's random but im switching gears back to the power point).  I was going to make a video for my project and it would have been all awesome except that because I got sick, I lost my voice!  Not only that (it only lasted a day or two) but for the whole week following (even now) it sounded weird.  I went to school and was told I sounded like an old man, a 30-year-old smoker, a 40-year-old smoker, a child smoker, and a teenage boy.  The french horn player made fun of my voice because I kept cracking...  It's just about back to normal now though!!  Now, back to the newton mobile, (because I began writing this Friday and am just now finishing it, it may sound a bit weird) I put it in a plastic bag and left it on a shelf in my science teacher's room.  Then, on the bus ride home, I realized I left Britain! O_O  I left Britain, all alone, in the science room, in a plastic bag no less!!  The whole weekend!!  We didn't even get to celebrate eyebrow day together!!!  I almost cried T_T I'm such a bad parent...  My cousin and friend gave me grief about it, on top of the regret I had...  maybe he'll be back for Pi Day...  I hope so.  Not that it's as personal.  I'm probably going to have to present my project in class tomorrow...  Wish me luck!!  (some guys presented theirs already and it was really good for them...  all of their examples went together... and what do I have?!  Leonardo Dicaprio walking a tortoise!!)

Yay!

Woo!  So, I haven't really done much lately, I don't think and I got on today and saw I had over 100 views.  I was so happy.  On top of that, the audience is a bit diverse which made me even happier.  Now, Ive had visits from Germany, Russia and South Korea!  That makes me even happier.  Well, that's about it.  Thanks for reading!

I'm So Excited!

So, in science class, we are creating "Newton Mobiles".  In other words, self-propelled vehicles. It's going to be awesome!  I'm hoping to have the car that goes the furthest.  It doesn't have to go fast, just far.  So, to accomplish this, I'm making a mouse trap car!  It's going to be super awesome.  And I keep saying awesome...  Apparently Americans say "awesome" a lot and strangely, the British counter-part is "brilliant".  I think  that, one day, they should switch words, the UK will say "awesome" and the US will say "brilliant".  So, back to the Newton Mobiles.  I'm planning on making a mouse trap car using several mousetraps so that when one goes off, it triggers another which triggers another and it'd be all awesome.  Oh, there I go again...

Happy News!

I got my magnets back! =P

More Revenge

So, today as I came down the stairs from math class, heading to Gym class, I was beat repeatedly with a flower.  How did this all started?  Well, you could say it started with a magnet or two or even trace it back to Pep Band.  So, the French Horn Player had not heeded the warning i had left in the form of a magnet in his locker, so I decided to send him another message.  This time, in the form of a valentine.  Yes, as many know, today is Valentine's Day (or as quite a few others know it, Single's Awareness Day!).  So, last week and into this week, my school was raising money by selling valentines.  I had planned to buy one for my sister but when i asked my mom for the money, she misunderstood my secretive whispering (as my sister was in the other room) as that I wanted to get a valentine for the French Horn Player.  Before i could expain, she went on with a plan saying that I could again use the alias of Miss Piggy.  I rather liked this idea so I decided to try it.  I bought the valentine just yesterday and wrote on the note that comes with it:

To:  [French Horn Player],
        From your dream girl, Miss Piggy.

        P.S. Give [Feconi] her magnets back!

From:   Miss Piggy

Yes, it was a bit more boring of a note than what I left with the magnet but it worked almost more beautifully.  It was delivered this morning with a carnation to his first hour.  Later, as he wacked me with it down the hall, he was exclaiming "How dare you?!  HOW DARE YOU?!?!  It was so awkward!  I was the only person in my first hour to get one!  People asked who it was from and I couldn't say anything!" and he went on and on.  His friend was even there to testify.  He later said that his teacher made him walk up to the front of the class to recieve it.  Ha ha...   As he hit me with the flower, the stem broke...  It was a manly pink carnation too.  I had feared he would think it was stupid but it turned out to work better than planned.  Maybe he'll give me back my magnets.  Honestly, i wouldn't mind if he started to pester me just cuz it would be interesting.  Oh well, we'll find out tomorrow i guess.

In other news, I'm so extremely happy!!  I now have about 80 views!!  And my audience has expanded to include Russia and Germany (although i have constant visits from Germany before).  After reading Hetalia, there is this weird feeling of being able to relate to other countries sort of...  Er, it's hard to put what I'm trying to say into words...  It's like it means more now that I've read Hetalia to see a country's name.  Before it would have been like "Whoa!"  but now it's like "OMIGOD!!!THATSSOAMAZINGICAN'TBELIEVEIT!!"  So ya...  It's weird because my family and I were talking about Russia earlier today too.  Rest assured, it wasn't anything bad just too awkward to mention.  Ha, Dad- "I thought you said Russia..."  Well, thats about it for now.  Sorry I haven't had any more writing to post...  I feel kinda bad because now I write about everyday occurrances and it feels a bit self-centered...  I'm working on more writing and hopefully I will be able to post more soon.  Thanks for reading!

What Happens At Pep Band

So, two days ago, just this past Thursday, at pep band, i was engaged to, cheated on, and robbed by the same guy!  It's a bit of story so here we go-  It started out as any other pep band.  Earlier than expected.  The sheet they gave us at the beginning of the year said to be there by six and the board in the band room said the same thing so even when i arrive there a quarter before six, they've already moved into the gym!  It made me so angry but there is nothing i could do about it.  I wasn't the only that was late, in fact, there were others later than me.  Anyway, around 3rd quarter we get a break and get to go to the lobby or band room, maybe visit the concessions stand.  However, this was a girl's basket ball game so the concessions stand was closed!  Yes, it was closed!!  I felt kinda bad for the girls playing.  Not nearly as many people show up for their games as the guys' games.  My teacher made me count the people in the pep band and the people in the stands to compare numbers.  There were 70ish people in the stands (including both teams' parents and spectators and band parents) and 33 people in pep band!  It was kinda saddening.  Anyway, when I was in the lobby, I was with my usual group and we just stood around talking.  Then, the french horn player from my ensemble realized he had McDonald's in his band locker and ran off to go get it cuz he hasn't had supper yet.  Well, it was about time for 4th quarter to start so my group headed for the gym.  A few minutes later, here came the french horn player with McDonald's.  After playing a couple of songs, the french horn player came over to where i was standing (they didn't pull out the bleachers for us so we were all standing in a corner for the whole game), got down on one knee, and held up a french fry with both hands.  I took it, playing along, and people were laughing and stuff but then he goes over to a guy in the drum line and does the exact same thing!  Our drum major stuck up for me saying "Don't cheat on [Feconi]!"  And smacked him.  Then, when it was all over, we all headed back to the band room to put our instruments away and head home.  Well, my mom was there talking to another mom and she also wanted to make sure most of the students got a ride home so i was going to be there for awhile.  I went to my locker to get some stuff i needed for french homework when the french horn came and stole the magnets out of my locker!  He started stuffing them through the vent holes in his locker and there wasn't much i could do, not that i really wanted to do anything.  Then, a crowd started to gather trying to give him advice on how to stuff my magnets into his locker without opening it because they would always stick to the locker.  So i stood there getting what i needed from my locker and he had opened his locker to just put my magnets on the inside of his locker door and he headed back to the band room.  When I got to the band room, he was laying on his back in the middle of the floor and i thought about how i just needed something to throw at him.  The only things i had in my pockets though were my wallet and my camera.  I wasn't about to throw my camera so i took out my wallet and chucked it at him, right in the stomach.  Now that he had my wallet he said he was going to steal all my money.  It was only fifty cents so i let him take it.  Later that night, after my mom and i left, we went to Target to get him a magnet of his own.  The only magnet i could find though was a pink cupcake photo frame!!  Oh well, this way i could make it funnier then originally planned.  When I got home, I put a picture of Miss Piggy in it and wrote a note saying:

Dear [French Horn Player],

 I went out and got you a very manly magnet of your own because you kept stealing mine.  I even put a picture of your dream girl in it (we all know how you're the president of her fan club).

                                                                                                   Sincerely,

                                                                                                         [Feconi]

P.S.  I want my magnets back

And the next day (just yesterday actually), I stuck it on his locker.  I checked on it a bit before first hour to see if he had found it yet and noticed some people were reading the note!!  I got kinda embarrassed because I don't like public attention of any form and ran off...  He sent me a text though saying that he got it and then later returned my fifty cents.  I'm still missing my magnets though!!  Anyway, this is just some of the fun we have at pep band.  Thanks for reading.  Oh, and i told you how the french horn could be a handful!



Beating People With Shoes

Ok, so I didn't actually beat somebody with a shoe.  I just hit him with it.  And it was his own shoe...  So what happened was that my ensemble was practicing our music in a practice room when I noticed that the french horn's shoes looked like two different colors from where i was sitting.  Everyone else in the group agreed so his simple solution was to take them off.  An his feet smell...  So i told him if he got out of hand that i would hit him with one of his shoes, which he haven't been untied in six months to a year, until today.  So, a few minutes later he was being annoying so i just picked up his gross, discusting shoe and smacked him with it.  When i got back to the band room, everybody seemed to know and some said that i did a good job.  It was a bit weird.  Oh, and the other thing he did was that he played my trumpet, with my mouth piece!!!!  Oh well, if i get sick, i can blame him.  By the way, I've finished one of the videos I've been working on!!  Maybe I'll post it... idk.  Bye for now!

Video Making

Ah!! I'm making a new video!!  Its nothing special or anything but it's fun.  Anyway, besides writing, I like to make videos of anime characters.  I know, it's weird, but it's something to do.  Anyway, this one is about Russia and Belarus from Hetalia.  I just started so I don't have much done but oh well.  It'll be done eventually!  Most of my new videos are of Hetalia... Maybe I'll share a few!  That's all i have for now but I hope you've had a nice weekend!

Pep Assembly

Ah, pep assemblies.  Such an awkward way for the school to gather together about three times a year to celebrate our sports players and play random games from who knows where.  Well, today, my school had one.  It wasn't that bad actually...  Our guy dance line was actually kinda cool.  However, afte you have seen one cheerleading routine, you've kinda seen them all.  I mean, they use all of the same stunts but just in a different order to different music and use the same cheers.  Oh well, i shouldn't be hatin on the cheer squad.  So, back to the weird games, my friends "encouraged" me to participate today.  By that, i mean they forcefully held up my hand when they asked for volunteers... and i got called...  Oh well.  We had to lie down feet to head and toss a ball that we're holding between our feet to the person behind us.  My team didn't do too bad i guess...  We didn't win but winning isn't everything.  It was all in good fun, but i still threatened promised to take my friend's lives in their sleep tonight.  Well, i gotta go eat dinner before getting ready to go to the basket ball game tonight.  which i don't have to be at til 7ish...  In others words I don't have anything to say so I'm going to casually pass it off as "i have to go"...?

Random Poem 2

So, here's another poem.  I usually write more of this stuff...  I hope it doesn't sound too stupid and there is a part i left out just because the language wasn't very nice...  Anyway, I appreciate all comments you have and look forward to hearing your opinion!

For Now, Untitled

You tell me to be more confident,

but I think it's pretty evident,

no matter how hard I keep trying,

I always end up crying.

No matter how easy it is to conceive,

all these words I wish to say,

Even if, in myself, I believe,

I will never be able to convey.

If only I could communicate,

my feelings to you.

I would find it's not that hard to change fate.

But what could I do?

It's not as easy as you think,

It all changes

in just a blink.

My feelings I must rearrange.

I try to read your paralanguage

But it's just too strange,

I'm beginning to think,

I'm going deranged.

I'm beginning to think that is isn't meant to be,

perhaps that's just our destiny.

To look from a distance,

always and forever,

You'll never know my existence,

nor will we be, ever be together.

So Happy!

I'm so happy!  I got first views in forever today!!!  Thanks you guys so much!!!  But, along with that, today feels like a sad day for some reason.  My teacher asked me if i was ok today, twice.  I wonder if it's just me though cuz he asked me before...  It's prob just my hair and how i stare off into space and how im quiet and stuff...  Oh well, i don't feel especially bad today.

To sum it all up

This weekend was ok.  The guard show ended up good.  We got a 75.something and it's just our second showing and got the best score out of everybody there so yay.  Then, the ensemble practice went ok.  We, honestly, didn't do much practicing.  We ended up talking most of the time which is ok.  The french horn kept wanting to see (sort of) my cat which lives outside.  So i sent him outside to check cuz he was willing to but the cat didn't show.  We also ended up talking about centaurs because of our ensemble assembly call...  it's a long story... and then we talked about Sexy and I Know It and a bunch of other random stuff.  Then, they had to leave and they both assumed the cat was dead even though i had pictures (they accused me of using strings and posing him for pictures, even in the video).  Yup, we aren't very productive.  So, now the cat is inside and i need to take another video of  him and make sure that he jumps and the whole cat is in the frame at once to prove there aren't any strings.  And the Trombone player insists he can't watch the video cuz he's moving to Canada...  ergh.  Oh, well.  I actually really love my ensemble so it's not like im angry with them or anything.  Oh, and I'm working on another poem so hopefully that will be finished in another week or so if i can get my butt moving.  And idk if it makes a difference (since Blog of Barium-ness hasn't been viewed in the last few days) but i appreciate any comments you leave me.  I hope to use criticism or praise to help improve.  Thanks!

A trip!

So, today, I'm going on a trip!  Do i really want to?  No, not really...  It's a guard trip.  My sister is on winter guard and they have a trip just about every weekend for the next while to compete.  So, i have to go with her, on the bus, on the school bus....  At least today is a short trip (a late, short trip). Last week, we spent over 8 hours on a school bus and it sucked cuz the heaters in the back of the bus weren't working...  i don't exactly hate going on the trips but they can be bothersome when you really just don't want to do anything on a Saturday.  At least i have an easy job.  i get to sit in the stands and take pictures while other people pull the tarp (or, like last year, props).  It can be fun but it can also be boring. At least it gives me a chance to get more people on my 3DS miiplaza!!  Last week, we were at a truck stop and i got a guy named Romeo on it and i just wanted to yell out "Romeo, Romeo!  Where fort art tho Romeo!" in the truck stop.  However, i resisted the urge in fear of looking stupid...  Well, wish the team luck as we get ready to perform for the second time this season!

Ensemble... Assemble!!

So, I have this ensemble for band and we're getting ready to compete in this competition thing-a-ma-jig.  Anyway, we're a quintet consisting of two trumpets, a french horn, a trombone and a tuba.  Oh, and I'm the only girl...  So, when my dad found out that some of the guys are coming over on Sunday to practice he said "a bunch of guys are coming over to play with my daughter?" it was an awkward moment in my house...  Anyway, we're all pretty cool.  Right now, we have an assembly and mating call (yes, a mating call, it's made up of this call-response part in the music).  It's all pretty crazy.  Maybe I'll tell you a bit more about us and if we make it or not later.  I just ask that you wish me luck on Sunday, the ones that are coming over can be a bit of handful... Actually just the one.......

Mustache Monday

Ergh, Monday is Mustache Monday and I have the mustache but i have no idea how to put it on.  It's pretty much the mustache from the bottom of those novelty glasses with the glasses, big nose and mustache (actually, that is what it is).  Right now i just have it sitting next to the computer... It reminds me of Romano from Hetalia.  Ha ha.  So, any ideas?

10 Views!

Hey, thanks to everyone who's viewed this blog! 10 views in one day?  I know it doesn't sound like much but i am truly grateful.  For just starting out, I only have one way to go, up.  Thanks for visiting!

Random Poem 1

ok! So I made up a poem just now so I could put it as a post so that I actually have something to show somebody who might be interested in this blog.  I usually write darker poems and brighter stories but it just so happens that this poem is a little bit happier.  I hope it means something to you as it kind of does to me.  Thanks for reading this and please enjoy.

When She's More of Your Kind

To say we are meant for each other,

though I wouldn't mind,
just doesn't sound right,
when she's more of your kind.

You come talk to me
just about every day,
you make me feel happy
in a casual way.

How your eyes,
make contact with mine
gives me strange feelings,
feelings hard to define.

To say we are meant for each other,
though I wouldn't mind,
just doesn't sound right,
when she's more of your kind.

When I see you with her,
I can't bear the sight.
Her shorts too short,
her shirts too tight.

When I see you with her,
I suddenly remember,
how you and me,
could never be together.

To say we are meant for each other,

though I wouldn't mind,
just doesn't sound right,
when she's more of you kind.

But when we are together,
it's easy to believe,
that something could possibly happen
between you and me.

Just seeing her in class,
reminds me I'm not enough.
But when you talk to me it's hard to think
that what's between us could be a bluff.

To say we are meant for each other,

though I wouldn't mind,
just doesn't sound right,
when she's more of you kind.

I see how she acts in front of you,
she's clearly interested in something.
To think I might have a chance
is really distressing.

But when I saw you

turn her down,

I knew it was something else you had been looking for,
and you knew that in me it could be found.

When you turned to me

I couldn't do anything to hide

all the excitement

that had been building up inside.

To say that we are meant for each other,
I'm sure you wouldn't mind,
when we are together,
to everyone else, we are blind.

Again...

So, I realize that I'm posting twice in one day and I'm not sure if that's normal but I figured I would tell you a little bit about my plans for Blog of Barium-ness.  So, as I think I've said earlier, I'm going to post some of the things that I write and I'll probably talk about anime and manga and all of that other awesome stuff that I think is cool totally awesome.  So, once again, thank you for reading my posts!

Hello

Hi.  This is my first post so I hope I'm doing this right.  I want to start off by saying thanks for checking out my blog!  I know that, unless you specifically searched for it, you probably wandered upon it by accident.  At least you decided to stick with it and read my first post!  So, I thank you for doing that.  So, if you did stumble upon this by accident, I want to tell you that this blog is most likely not going to be about science, even though the title has something to do with the elements...  It's kind of an inside joke that you could probably figure out but for the sake of saving space, I'm going to skip telling you about it for now.  My plans are to hopefully post some writing that I do in my spare time.  Anyway, I just ask that if you decide to follow me, that you please support and stick with me.  I hope to finish my education while at the same time achieving my dreams on the side.  Thank you!